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What a weird day today

Met up with plenty of old friends, reminiscing about days gone by, looking forward to things in the future.

Heh, had this odd……..erm shall I say tendency? Of predicting/prophesying to people about certain stuff, careers, growth, family, etc.

Especially relationships.

It just comes as a feeling, you know? how things are gonna turn out. The moment I told W her proposal from Mr W is coming, describing to M her future husband/career and hinting to D about when’s his BIG day coming. Heh

And the weird thing is: after I do something like that, people start coming to them/things begin to happen!!

Esp J, a close dear elder sister of mine. after I told her prince is coming, Another gal pal, let’s call her Y tells her the EXACT SAME THING 10 minutes later

Same for W. How weird. Like it’s inevitable

Then the next thing I know: 3 people tell me the same thing about mine!!

1st: Mrs Y asks me when is mine coming and gave me invaluable advice about BGR. And building back my self-esteem

2nd: D asks me and hints mine is coming near.

3rd: W & M tells me not to give up hope and continue to chase (mystery gal) and remind me of my vision with her.

And that same inevitable feelings came back. You know, the same ones last year
After shoving it down recently and telling myself to focus on studies. To forget about her, at least till exams are over.
And it all comes back just as I’m ready to bury it.

Yeah…..well, cause of that I couldn’t sleep. And I kinda got emo and wondered, am I really ready? Do I really like her, or is it just a passing phase?

Might just be a sign, anyway. No moves till May 24th

and the weirdest thing, this cheered me up:

(MV/s mirrored btw)

Nothing suits me like a suit
Barney Stinson (Neil Patrick Harris) – How I Met Your Mother

I know what you’re thinking
What’s Barney been drinking?
That girl was smoking hot

Yes I coulda nailed her
But no it’s not a failure
‘Cuz there’s one thing she is not

To score a ten would be just fine
But I’d rather be dressed to the nines
It’s a truth you can’t refute
Nothing suits me like a suit

Picture a world
where all the boys and girls
Are impeccably well dressed
That delivery guy
in the jacket and tie
That puppy in the double-breast

That ’80s dude in mutton chops
That baby with a lollipop
That lady cop who’s kinda cute
Nothing suits ‘em like a suit

Wingman I can wear
They’re oh so debonair
The perfect way to snare
a girl with daddy issues

In navy blue or black
Check out this perfect rack
I want to give them a squeeze

Oh really? Then answer these questions
If you please

What would you do if you had to choose
Between your suits and a pot of gold? Suits.

What would you say
If you gave your suits away
In return you’d never grow old? Suits.

What would you pick
One million chicks
Or a single three-piece suit? It’s moot.

What if world peace
Were within your reach … Abbadabada I’m gonna stop you right there. It’s suits. Come on, Lily. Get your head outta your ass.

Two! Three! Four!

Girls will go and girls will come
But there’s only one absolute
Every bro on the go needs to know
That there’s no accepted substitute

I’m sorry suits, let’s make amends
My Sunday best are my best friends
Send casual Friday down the laundry chute

‘Cuz nothing suits the undisputed oft-saluted suitor of repute
Like a …. wait for it …
Suit!

Then again, she is pretty hot.

The only guy to make suits……HOT

HIMYM really clicked with me, even though I’m not much of a TV guy.

Ted Mosby’s hunt for his kids’ mother, eventually finding her (after xx years?)

Kinda the same desire in my heart

Not to mention BARNEY STINSON. Yep the playboy, but he’s HOT, suave, debonair and most of all:

AWESOME

I know, many of his deeds are X-rated and immoral, but he really can pull all that off. Why?

confidence

To find it back, finding my own strengths back and being confident. And above all, being smiley, jovial, confident, AWESOME.

I’m suiting up tomorrow!!!! Haha.

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Ok, here’s the list:

Things I’d like:

Sony Cybershot TX-5/T99: $549/399

Oakley Half-jacket XLJ/Radar range Shades: $200.95/299.95

LFC long-sleeved home jersey with Suarez no 7: $130-135

New Away jersey (Long/short-sleeved) with Agger no 5: $127.5-132.5

Iphone compact speakers from Altec Lansing: $128

Blazer-$149

Adidas Techfit Tights, Sleeveless top + bottom: $298

Bag from Natural Project: $60

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Stuff I need:

Shirts for formal use: $39-79

Tie(s): $19-49

Belt for formal & casual use: $39-59

Bermudas: $29-49 x 3

Adidas Sweat Band: $29

Hydration Bag (Camelpak or similar): $70-200

New running shoes (Asics GT-2160/Adidas Adizero Range): $139-229

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And the ones that can’t be bought nor earned:

Better results at school

Even greater personal breakthroughs

Things to happen in my personal life, expansion of social circle

and last of all:


Becoming whom I’m born to be

One marathon a day, to throw every doubt away


Everything  and anything is possible, as long as there’s a few brave men and women

 

 

Amazing things are still happening worldwide, the power of the masses. The power of social media. But above all:

 

The power of belief, of hope, of faith.

 

We can all do it, if only we believe we can

Here goes, the 100 km route is out:

June 25, 1800- June 26 1000 @ the Promontory Marina

Focus, supreme focus together with studies.

 

Anybody willing to help? Food, water, even your presence and encouragement will be GREATLY APPRECIATED.

Especially at the halfway point (Bedok Reservoir). Cause every athlete will come to the point where even he’ll doubt himself

Or be there at the finishing line, the sight of somebody you know/love cheering you on is really heartwarming (never had anyone cheering for me at the finishing point in all of my races)

 

Yep, the biggest challenge yet. Gonna aim between 13h 30min-15h

 

I can do this

Ohh lala

El Pistolero has arrived

Fernando who??

I feel like a little boy out to play again!!!!!!!!!

There is something about stillness. When everything seems to be quiet, serene and tranquil…..

Ever felt this way before? It’s wonderful…..the world at peace, the world being so quiet.

Am studying at the airport. Brushing up on maths and statistics. Dry repetitive subjects that need you to hammer home the basics yet blending in the fluidity and creativity to tackle challenging problems.

And while attempting those equations, had a funny flashback and insight. Since I was a kid, I loved attempting maths questions. There was something about them being so logical, so stimulating yet so fluid. Numbers never lie!!!
Yet, doing maths requires diligence as well as brilliance. The brilliance comes in flashes, but it is the graft, practice and hard work that will give that brilliance a stable platform to shine!!!
Those days back in school, I was one of the outstanding kids, shining in my maths and English. However something happened along the way. Guess what?
Yep: Family and algebra. Sounds ridiculous but its true!!!
Family turmoil and seeing letters that don’t quite add up caused a change. A reaction that made me behave in a certain way.
Adversity brings out the best and the worst in everybody, in my case. I became afraid, and I retreated; to protect myself from any hurt. And I daren’t try it again. Hence this habit I’ve brought forward today.
On the other hand, it has helped mould my fighting spirit and determination. Helped create this drive in me that will fight to the end, to the death if need be. (yeah, it can go to that extent) Well, God has been really gracious to me in a way: he has used common grace to teach me many things, to show me what is really beautiful. To make my minus into a plus. Examples?
Marathon Running: fighting through the odds, fighting yourself, pushing your limits and facing your fears.
Liverpool Football Club: Funnily enough, my life is very closely intertwined with this …… team. Is it just a team? Not really……….
In mysterious ways, those days of being an atheist. God has used LFC to teach me values, character. Loyalty, endurance, pain, suffering, standing fast and eventually tasting glory, glory earned through hard work and teamwork. Above all: commitment
In those things God has placed foundations in my life, to prepare for his entry. And then set my calling into place.
Being an economist is complex. But their role is simple-seeing things before they happen, and doing something about it. Also to interpret dreams and visions. (Graphs, charts, trends, markets the like)
They need wisdom, wisdom to discern the complex data and to dissect into simple terms and solutions. Also wisdom is needed to pass on that knowledge to the powers-that-be in a gracious yet firm manner.
They need focus, cause their work is so complex!! And it’s very easy to be distracted. To lose focus along the way. And one slip, one mistake and there goes the solution……
And God’s way of teaching them?
Wisdom: people- I’m not a natural people person. Whatever skills or charm I might have is trained through constant interaction. All kinds of people: in the service line, sales, government work, surveys etc. Actually I’m a pretty private and secretive guy, but God has constantly placed scenarios where I’ve NO CHOICE but to step out. Hilarious
Focus- Distance running. You need focus, lots of it. You need determination, lots of it. 42 kilometers is a number, a big number for your feet. Either you train beforehand or you pay the price later and learn it the hard way anyway. A normal human being will go through pain, excruciating pain (whether you’re fat or thin, tall or short, Kenyan or Singaporean). Focus helps numb that pain. Determination helps to keep those voices in your head in check. And eventually there’ll come a point in time where you’ve just have to switch yourself off. That old you, negative you, those unhelpful emotions. And when you’ve done that: congratulations!!!
It’s either that or dropping out. Yep I know- I’ve to relearn that for my 100km run (Learn not to see the pain or the number, learn to switch your brain off)
And finally the last lesson: Love-Being a problem solver for people is the ultimate aim for the economist. Social problems, wage problems, economic problems, government problems, maybe even personal problems too. And because the economist is an analytical, vision based career needing a combination of logic and intuition makes them truly indispensible people to society.
Now: what if those economists had love? Wow
They’ll make it their life’s work to tackle the problems of society, unemployment. Also through constant interaction with people of all classes and standings. All talents and abilities with varying character, he/she is trained to discern what a person is like and how to communicate/work with/help them.
Yep, see the link? My life has been a series of ‘forced’ interactions with people. From the corporate world to the man on the street, governments to the service sector. From thinking and planning in the higher ups to the dirty work done on the ground.
The people I’ve met have been a kaleidoscope, and I suspect there’s more to come.
Being in church, and strangely enough: a Liverpool fan have taught me unconditional love. People come and go, but my love for God will always remain. Star players come and go, but my affection for Liverpool will always prevail. And being an economist-in-training has helped me explain, teach, counsel and extent hope to people. And learning how to use my intuition with logic properly.
To do that well…I’ve to do the things I dislike:
Practicing my maths and stuff. To overcome my perceived dislike. Talking to people, well I have an aloof (stuck-up ) face. And I’m pretty private as well (I have a softer side, only those I’ve trusted will know). And I can get painfully shy at times (though people will see a stern and strong exterior, just protecting my vulnerability).
Jobs have taught me initiative, daring. I’m someone who usually sees and senses things before they happen, but does nothing about it (explains why I’m still single, lol). Now well, I’ve to do something about it. Cause after all: Who dares WINS
Sensitivity, that God-given gift to discern, especially about people and how things have happened for them in the past and what it will be in future, the innumerous visions and dreams, that ability to narrate and direct. Empathy, understanding, flowing emotions and to even prophesy.
And this came to me while doing my work (with one eye on the transfer news =P)
Well, that made me stop my work and pen in this entry, before it is lost somewhere in a forsaken section of my mind
It’s so peaceful……..

PS: 2011 will be a wonderful year, promotion, stability and growth.
Goodbye Fernando.